Preparation is the word for Advent. I am preparing my heart to receive God’s word and let it take root in my heart. I also plan to prepare for the upcoming official Pediatrics residency on January 1, 2018.
Before coming back home in Palawan, I envisioned my mornings to be fruitful and productive. I would start with a good prayer time, a hearty breakfast, meaningful conversations with my parents and traipsing through the day, empowered. I would have loved plenty of pockets of time where I could write and envision my 2018, with my hopes and dreams safely written in the annals of my nth journal.
But you see, coming back home in Palawan, I become a Tita to two cute, cuddly, handsome and the most makulit little children as nephews. Enzo is a three year old smartypants, amazing me with his witty answers and his good grasp of language. Ram is a one year old handsome cutie who just cannot resist any food offered him. He’s an eating, pooing and sleeping machine.
In reality, going back home in Palawan, my mornings start quite late. Since I sleep in one room with my sister and my nephews, waking up in the middle of the night is a common scene for me. It’s either Ram is crying at 2am, or Enzo’s foot landing smack on my face. Ang bigat ng kamay at paa ni Enzo. I feel like I am being punched or kicked from sleep if he’s beside me.
I notice that every time I go on vacation, my prayer time also tends to go on vacation with me. I am not surprised at all that I am struggling to find a good time and place for prayer here in my house. Though I am happy and grateful the whole family is home (I have a big family), it is uncomfortable for me to find my own solace here. Hirap mag-me time. Still, I know that isn’t an excuse for not praying.
I relish going to the old Cathedral’s adoration chapel from time to time. My moments with the Lord in that place were special.
As for residency, I haven’t really had the time to psych myself up for it. In the coming days I will make the time for it.
In the meantime, as Christmas is fast approaching, I plan to immerse myself in spending quality time with my family.
Here’s to watching lots of kiddie movies Moana, Wreck it Ralph, Finding Nemo, Emoji, Up, Trolls, The Lego Movie, etc., in the days to come.
I also commend myself for writing this blog despite being interrupted for more than ten times already by my nephews’ kakulitan. 🙂